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Thirty-one Days Walking Through Darkness Day Sixteen :: We Stood on Holy Ground Part 2

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20121016-123442.jpgDeath was looming that day. And we were standing on holy ground…

In that dark hour she came to us. The nurse. She encouraged us to tell him it’s ok. Its ok to go, we are fine. But she didn’t know my daddy. She didn’t know that by us telling him its ok to go, made him fight to stay. Even with the promise of heaven before him, He couldn’t leave us with the tears. He knew we were not fine. And he fought.

Heart racing at nearly 200 beats a minute. blood pressure through the roof. His body trembling. He managed the words … I. Love. You. I. Looovvveee. You. Over and over I love you. For almost two hours. He fought.

I prayed for mercy. Prayed if it was his time please take him home. Please don’t let him suffer. Please. But He didn’t take him. Yet. Instead He quieted His heart.

The heaviness filling the room was suffocating. Watching this was too much. My sister and I fell into the chair and we prayed. We prayed for His presence to fill the room.

But He was there. He was already there. He was there long before that day. He was there when we got the call. In the car. The parking garage. The elevator. He was there in the little room with chairs that squeezed my family. He was there in every inch of the long hallway leading to my daddy’s room. And he was right there. There in my daddy’s room.

He was there, wrapped between us, wrapped within us, wrapped around us. -Jennifer of studiojru

And we were standing in His presence. We were standing on holy ground. And when we prayed. When we shifted our focus. From our surrounding to Him. The room became light. And we could breathe. We even laughed. For as hard as this was, watching him leave, it was joyful. Because we knew. Our daddy was looking upon heaven.

And God whispered, I’m here.
I am right here.

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you.

Isaiah 43:2

Author: Shelly Richardson

A stay at home mom, married to my best friend, who loves like Jesus. Together we have four beautiful daughters. One biological, one adopted and two by way of marriage. Our 12 year old daughter was diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome when she was 6 years old and our youngest was diagnosed with autism at 3 years old. I have dealt with chronic illness most of my life and at times has been debilitating. It is through this illness and the special needs of our children that drew us closer to God. Beyond Borders is the place where I write out my story of living beyond my borders. A place to share of God’s love and grace, His mercy and sovereignty, and what that looks like in my own little world of chronic illness and autism. A place where courage and faith intersect and He moves me to action. My hope in writing is that you find something that inspires you. Encourages you. Makes you smile.

2 thoughts on “Thirty-one Days Walking Through Darkness Day Sixteen :: We Stood on Holy Ground Part 2

  1. We were standing in His presence. Amazing. A gift, a precious gift. Thank you for sharing your journey, Shelly.

  2. Pingback: Thirty-one Days Walking Through Dark « Beyond Borders

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