Beyond Borders

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Thirty-one Days Walking Through Darkness Day 9 :: He’s Calling for Me


20121009-124721.jpgThe end of me. The slow pouring out of all of me. Empty. It is the only way to freedom. Free from the darkness. Free from the past. Free from a world that devours.

He’s calling for me.

I am wanting to go. But fear has me bound. Fear of what lies ahead. Fear of leaving behind. Fear of the unknown. Because there is comfort in the knowing. Its a fleeting comfort. Temporary. Comfort born of lies. But it wins.

He’s calling for me.

To find rest. It is simple. It’s the the emptying that’s hard. That letting go of self. To be completely poured out. It’s hard.

He’s calling for me.

To be empty. To be poured out. I feel the calling and the holding back. And I see it. I see me. Poured out. Empty. Arms open wide and fingers unfurled. Eyes closed with face toward heaven. I can feel the freedom. It’s warm. And it’s orange. And I am soaring.

God, are you there?
I’m here.
I am right here.

Author: Shelly Richardson

A stay at home mom, married to my best friend, who loves like Jesus. Together we have four beautiful daughters. One biological, one adopted and two by way of marriage. Our 12 year old daughter was diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome when she was 6 years old and our youngest was diagnosed with autism at 3 years old. I have dealt with chronic illness most of my life and at times has been debilitating. It is through this illness and the special needs of our children that drew us closer to God. Beyond Borders is the place where I write out my story of living beyond my borders. A place to share of God’s love and grace, His mercy and sovereignty, and what that looks like in my own little world of chronic illness and autism. A place where courage and faith intersect and He moves me to action. My hope in writing is that you find something that inspires you. Encourages you. Makes you smile.

5 thoughts on “Thirty-one Days Walking Through Darkness Day 9 :: He’s Calling for Me

  1. I am loving your 31 day posts, thank you for your honest and moving words.

  2. God wanted me to be emptied out a couple of years ago. His Spirit comforted me by letting me know that “empty” is better than being preoccupied with everything that is not Himself. I was empty for some time. then He began to fill me with Himself.

    May God continue to be glorified in your story.

  3. Pingback: Thirty-one Days Walking Through Dark « Beyond Borders

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