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Thirty-one Days Walking Through Darkness Day Four :: The Break

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20121004-120302.jpgIt happens in a moment. The eye blinks and life is gone. Years of the knowing culminate in a blink. And I break. I thought I was stronger than this… I thought We were stronger. God? what happened?

Days racing out of control. Plans to be made. Tributes to be read. Words of sympathy… Did anyone just feel the world shift?

Weeks pass. And there is laughter and life and spinning. The world. Spinning. And it’s shifted. And I want to stop. I want off. It’s dizzying and I am fading. Right there. Fading. With buildings closing in on themselves. Words bouncing down streets. Laughter echoing from treetops. I want off now. Now. Before I become invisible. Please stop! I am screaming. Where is the sound? Where is my voice?

God are you there?

I’m here.
I am right here.

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you.

Isaiah 43:2

Author: Shelly Richardson

A stay at home mom, married to my best friend, who loves like Jesus. Together we have four beautiful daughters. One biological, one adopted and two by way of marriage. Our 12 year old daughter was diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome when she was 6 years old and our youngest was diagnosed with autism at 3 years old. I have dealt with chronic illness most of my life and at times has been debilitating. It is through this illness and the special needs of our children that drew us closer to God. Beyond Borders is the place where I write out my story of living beyond my borders. A place to share of God’s love and grace, His mercy and sovereignty, and what that looks like in my own little world of chronic illness and autism. A place where courage and faith intersect and He moves me to action. My hope in writing is that you find something that inspires you. Encourages you. Makes you smile.

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